Why must I feel all the pain? I've been raped 17 times, and my heart has been broken 2 times. I just wanna make all the anger, pain and suffering go away. (I'm going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everythings perfect, act like it's all a dream, and pretend it's not hurting me.) I hate that I hide how I feel, my fears, hopes, dreams, and my dark past. Anyway so there's this boii and he makes me smile and be happy, when i'm wit him I foget !!!!ALL!!!! my problems, I know that he will always protect mw, but can he protect me from myself for it's me I fear. I just wanna be normal, I want someone to love me. I want someone to think that I belong and deserve to be alive and happy.